Irreversible Damage

Maybe if you would've known the outcome, you wouldn't have done the same thing. 
I hope. 

Maybe if you knew the damage that your silence caused, you wouldn't have shut me out. 
I hope. 
But you did. And still are. 

Now there is this undeniable silent gap between us that I don't know if I'll ever be able to close again. This silent punishment that you have chosen to use on me has broken years of trust.
Is what we had salvageable anymore? What happens when something else "terrible" happens? More dramatic disappearances? It's ridiculous. It's immature. And it's done more damage than you'll ever know.  

"Whether you're on the giving or the receiving end, shutting down is bad for your relationships.

Research indicates that children would rather be yelled at than ignored. When prisoners are being punished, they are put in isolation, because being isolated is one of the harshest punishments there is — other than physical abuse. Likewise, the silent treatment is a form of punishment, a way of attempting to control your partner or others into doing what you want them to do. It is a withdrawal of approval, and can cause much fear in people who are vulnerable to this.

**You are giving people the silent treatment when you shut down to them, closing your heart and refusing to interact with them or acknowledge their presence. You act as if they are invisible, not responding to them at all or giving them a very minimal and withheld response.**

 Your hope in treating them this way is that they will get the message that they have displeased you. They have done something wrong in your eyes and deserve to be punished, deserve to have your "love" taken away."

 "Excluding and ignoring people, such as giving them the cold shoulder or silent treatment, are used to punish or manipulate, and people may not realize the emotional or physical harm that is being done."

 "The silent treatment is a cruel form of emotional abuse that no one deserves nor should tolerate. If an individual experiences this absence of communication, it is a sure sign that he or she needs to move on and heal"

So the only thing I can gather from your lack of communication with me..is that my friendship is no longer needed or wanted in your life. What else would you expect me to think? 

this silent treatment bullshit reminds me of someone