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hey kid.
look at you. reading. and interneting. good for you.

this is my first of many letters.
this one is simple.

I hope your pawpaw is still here when you read this, but his health is fading.
he's going in this week to find out what stage the cancer is in. so far-it isn't looking good.
your pawpaw is not what you would consider an "emotional" person. in all honesty, he had one of the driest personalities of anyone i'd ever met.
even gaga will tell you he's not a sensitive person.
in the 30+ years that she's known him, she has never seen the man cry. not once.

until today.
a conversation in the hospital parking lot between gaga and pawpaw....

"i'll miss you and casey, i mean of course. but the thought of leaving lyric....[holds back tears], i don't want to be without her. that little girl...[holds back tears], she needs to know i love her. she needs a father figure and i'm all she has. i just need 30 more years. that's all."

and with her awkward, uncomfortable, emotionally weird self,  gaga tells him not to worry...
"you'll  be here for a long time. you'll get to walk that little girl down the isle at her wedding."

annnnd he cries.

if you can remember only one thing about him-i hope you remember just how crazy for you he was. he loved you. he loved being around you. you made a very dry person-smile.





**if i EVER catch you smoking cigarettes, i will make you eat the entire pack. no, not smoke. eat. write that down.